...thanks to lover lorenzo and friend jill (who probably thinks I'm an asshole for still squatting in the nacl shit). Turns out my ego needed a little dose of self-awareness. I have a man sized ego, it's been getting me in plenty of trouble for too long now.
So I am ready to write my dad an email. And I am ready to put the nacl adventure aside: I've said what I need to say, mainly to myself, and now I can grow up already.