Monday, October 29, 2012

Not Making Dances

oh yah, baby. two years later, hurricane approaching and I begin typing.

maybe it was two weeks ago
maybe less
was browsing brainpickings.org:
oh yah baby

some bukowski poem excerpt
stays with me stays with me stays

and this morning, hurricane approaching
I am walking with my lover
walking back
with my lover
from the home despot
from the coffee shop
the wind beneath our wings on the way back
we are practically flying home
fueled on coffee

and I think
I realize
I receive
an epiphany

For fucks sake, Ophra
if life is not demanding of you
to make dances
to write
to succeed
if life is giving you the gift of

plenty



of
                 time


and!
plenty


                
of
                 LOVE

and just
.enough.

of everything else you could possibly
hope for
wish for
want for

and also
.some.

of those things you could not have known
to hope for
want for
wish for

like the strength to fail
     over
        and
          over
again
        and
the strength to acknowledge when you are wrong
to know
that you are often
wrong
        and
             that's OK
               it's OK
        and
that greatest gift of all
the secret weapon
the holy grail
the treasure that is

                 Gratitude

Really, girl
if life has given you all this
right
now
and if you know
        and
          you
            do
that life will change
it will
you know
change
and maybe it will demand of you
to write
or to make dances
or to fly far from home
or some such some such
then

For fucks sake, Ophra
Be grateful for this
emptiness,
embrace this
time,
learn what it can teach you about
loving
and
living
more fully